I woke up feeling
Like a piece of glass
While the sun casts blinding rays
Through the middle of my soul
I woke up feeling
Like a piece of glass
Ground down into tiny shards
That dazzle the eyes unpredictably
In the glaring sun
I woke up
With an awful taste in my mouth
I woke up
With clothes like sandpaper on my skin
I woke up most of all
Knowing something was gone
That I couldn’t replace
That I couldn’t even remember
When I was a child
I thought myself a monster
When I couldn’t cry
When I should have been crying
I used to lick my hands
Spread the spit over my face
And make sobbing noises
Then feel even more a monster
Because they were only fake tears
I’d feel so exposed
Just the way I do now
Like the piece of ground-up glass
In the sun
Even though I’m alone
And no one can see me
I feel transparent
I feel overrun
Sometimes when people cry
They say “It’s raining on my face”
I think it’s raining
Deep down in my soul
Where nobody can see
And there’s no path
From the rain
To my eyes